Snneeezz and yad miss it.

It moves FAST.

One day ya scratching ya gut thinkin what sense to make of it all,
then the next ya pushin it all, exactly where ya want it to be hard and fast...

NOw do ya self a faVouR and get iNto -

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And play ya baSs dork!!?

NOW THE SHITE'S HIT THE FAN!!!

WANTED .

SYDNEY'S SPONTANIOUS, FUN, PASSIONATE & MUSICALLY HUNGRY - DRUMMERS & BASS PLAYERS, WHO LIKE VOCALLY DRIVEN, ART INFLUENCED, SATIRICAL, SWEET TO HARD POP/PUNK/INDIE - FEMMES, PIXIS, NIRVANA, SONIC YOUTH, YEAH YEAHS, WHITE STRIPES, SHE WANTS REVENGE, CURE, KINKS, VELVET UNDERGROUND, MORRISSEY, SEX PISTOLS, NEW ORDER, DOORS, OLD INXS, DYLAN, EM IN EM, DEVO, BAUHAUS & BOWIE, FOR JAMMIN' & LOOKIN' TO BANDIN' UP.

Prefer galls, but guys who rock hard too are fine.

CONTACT ME.

CLINTON TELLS IT HOW IT IS!!

If you like trying to keep up with the world powers that
be, then watch this series of video Global politrix.

Thank god for the web.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvazI6IKu6g

The ways of the world.


And this spiffy video spoof of Mr Bush's movements -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlbotqux0Dg&mode=related&search=

http://myspace.com/kitleethehitchhikers

Looks like the whole cyber world has gone here,
so I have too...

http://myspace.com/kitleethehitchhikers

Come join us.

Could this be the end of SYDNEY AUSTRALIA BLOG??

Or perhaps just a new beginning...

Jaded? Look at this...

I know this is becoming a recurring theme round here, but it has been for ever?!!

Some how toppled upon this in my web research....

It's sooooo sweeeeet...

Oh and the picture I googled for, because I couldn't find any real soul mates to photograph readily on hand...

On the other hand, it would of been easy to paste a tonn of shots of infatuated, lust struck horn bags... heehee...

Still looking...

Religiously divine init?

I was wondering if you thought the wings clashed with the skin tone at all?


SOUL MATE

A soulmate is a mate of the soul - a partner, if you may. A spiritual love, a love undaunted by the properties bound by this world. A soulmate evolves as the soul does, of its own volition, in concert with the growth of the relationship. When you have a relationship with an actual soulmate (many, after the long absence of a mate, confuse the definition of soulmate), there are no domineering factors, for domination rules, whereas love shares. So, there is no ruling partner in the relationship; there is no need for one. Each partner has their strengths and weaknesses, so one mate compliments another.
Source: luvshades.com

Sex is Nike, smoking, blow jobs and Britney Spears loves yahoo and Coca Cola’s religious yoga beliefs.

Hotmail jokes on ebay maps, playing games downloaded from napster song lyrics dictionary or search engine clip art music.

Wallpaper chat greeting cards travel to movies, poetry, flowers and screensavers build from marijuana prom dresses.

Holocaust cracks the huns yellow pages, free zip codes in kelly blue book playstation cheats as Andrea Thomson tattoos horoscopes fonts abortion free internet eminem hotels during the hacking animals brook burke the sims civil war cartoon art.

If your wondering whats happened here then wonder no more.

I’m just trying to maximise search engine hits.

I wonder how well these highly searched terms will work?

Who is this Band? OK GO.

You have to check this out!

Tis so funny...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWCSGGrU9MA

Or chick-it-ti-click this the title link above (just worked it out) to get

http://www.mtvu.com/music/house_band/

(A whole load of OK go stuff - nuff to make you the world wide expert over night!!)



Many thanks to friends who like sending emails...


Arrrgh....

Just found out who they are...

Ok GO.

They're newish, just google "Ok Go"

Ok Go.

OK'>http://www.myspace.com/okgo">OK

A link to their blog...

My Russian Bride. (Advertorial)

Please allow me to run this little ad…

FOR SALE. Single Russian Bride, 21 years old, never married. Is keen to marry me, or so she claims. A diligent e-mailer. Sends many photos. Likes to cook and read. Is wild in love but a lady, socially. Willing to immigrate to Australia for love. Writes and speaks good English. Is educated and works for a very good Marketing firm in Moscow. Claims to be very warm in Winter and always very friendly.

SOLD?
I for one, believe her. She does look very warm. She has asked me to pay her air fair and suggested she can come live with me. How considerate of her. The only problem is, that I get the feeling that if you are willing to pay her air fair and the such, she might be willing to marry you and immigrate to Australia for love too!! That’s soooo good of her. I must say she does have a way of making one feel... very special?! Perhaps any interested parties could share her air fair with me. We could syndicate her. I will offer to put her up at my place. One of us might want to marry her!? She may perhaps be very fun and we could share her?!!

Simply email me here to confirm your interest!!

Please forward this email to possible interested parties.

Only serious offers need apply.
Let’s do this!!
The bidding starts NOW!
She seems like a very nice girl…

Ashton House

Had a great night last night. Did a photo shoot in Ashton House. It's this heritage listed mansion in Elizabeth Bay, above Bare Park, near the house called Boomerang or there bouts.



It sits on top of a dark and ominous grassy hill...

Soooo spooky...

We climb the forgotten relics of old sandstone terraces to gain entry to the grounds.

The whole building is locked, except a set of French doors that are jammed shut by an ornate marble table.

We push hard on the doors, the table eventually sliding aside behind them, dragging along the timber floorboards. Inside, all is black, we could hardly see a thing, only shadows, shadows that move. Shadows that peer at you from out the corner of your eye. Shadows grabbing your attention, when you really don't want them to. All is impeccably quiet in the centre of bustling Sydney City. How strange to not hear, anything...

A cool light breeze flows off the nearby harbour.

Scratching scurrying rats like elephants with teeth and claws. My friend, she screams. Coooing pigeons. Going ballistic low over out heads. Pigeon shite everywhere. Flapping, tattered sheets of black roof cover, out side of darkened windows hiding in every corner. "I don't like rats! I really don't like rats," she says. Four stories of endless grand derelict 160 year old architecture to get lost in.

Our heart skippin beats and racing...

Oh you gotta love it.

Will have to post some photos when they are developed.

Surely to have images of past dead inhabitants of Ashton house etched in the emulsion.

Poetry Is...

Written in the cab on the way to hosting a poetry evening in a Kings Cross's Melt bar, recently...

Great fun was had by all...




Poetry Is...

Poetry is,
two lovers newly met,
hot,
on a scorching high summer’s night,
above, the only witness,
moons light watches blue,
the playing naked frolics,
salty sweat beading lightly,
over lickable silhouettes,
a patter of green grass by the embankment,
laying down under bare feet,
as wondrous giggles beam from a bubbling bustle,
and hand in hand they dive,
into a spontaneous infinity of possibilities
flowing ever forward...

To be continued, in a suburb near you...

A little while ago, in a suburb not far from where you live, there was this guy who had a big trusting heart, and an equally big ego to suit. The existence of his healthy ego wasn’t without some legitimate reasons, afterall ego is not always a bad thing, and the guy had some definite rare and definable assets, that couldn’t be ignored and those helped the ego thrive. Such is what egos tend to do in towns all over the world. Unfortunately though, egos rage heavier when the heart, head and ego, don’t really understand each other. This guy came to realise over time, the ego is often one way people try to bandage up what they don’t really understand, to make things feel better, to feel happier and that sometimes this can be damaging to ones self, and that this is most common amongst many people.

His big heart helped him to legitimately care and feel deeply and encouraged him to help out on all sort of things, for all sorts of people, in his world without thinking about his own needs. Where as his big ego, gave him the courage to take bold unselfish dives into places he probably sometimes shouldn’t be meddling. As this guy wasn’t afraid to do it his own way, despite how everybody else viewed things and no doubt, he was always definitely, having fun.

He wasn’t one to shy away from drama, he was a trained and quite gifted actor after all, he quite rightly loved acting, yet hadn’t always gotten out of it what he had put into it and drama in life doesn’t necessarily assist drama occurring on stage.

Drama being what drama is, every once in a while he would fall in love and this would make him a fool. A real big fool, to be precise. Yes, he would become a fool for love and he definitely wasn’t the first to do this and he will unfortunately not be the last. But he fell for all the wrong girls and stayed with them for all the wrong reasons, denied their lies, lies, lies and actions, and got caught up in their lives. He helped them to achieve their dreams and placed aside his own, but still, he was definitely having fun, but he was ignoring his own needs. He learnt, in all good things in life there is a fine art of balance required, and without this balance things would not continue to coexist eternally.

Then came a point in his life, where the heat got too hot to handle, the girls kept turning up not worth the sharing of his big heart and his ego became understood by his mind and under his control, rather then being controlled by it. He had to accept he had made some mistakes that he never wanted to make again and wasn’t going to, he had to do like almost everybody else did and look after number one and in that way he could even look after others better! He had to make use of what he had best to offer the world.

He had come to remember, something he had forgot about, how interesting other peoples ways were and even more importantly, that many people can really only do others harm. Somewhere, some people had forgotten how to love and their egos had become a toxic disease to all the people around them. These people, he realised are best ignored by everybody. Let them suffer on their own. Time is too short to spend it fixing other’s confusion, when we have our own to sort out and especially when some people only understand cruelness as kindness, such are some people cut out. You can only give if they are ready to receive it.

He learnt how, life is such a complex place and there are many many ways of doing and looking at things that it can take much time to learn how to truly be ourselves and adapt to the multitude of situations we can face, with a healthy awareness and skill.

He realised, there are usually reasons for most everything; and things may be understood and taken from many different angles and understandings; yet some angles are truer then others and better still, others are more helpful. He came to realise how to think on his feet and control his own growth and direction and be happy being his own man by all by himself. Other people would have to take a second spot to what he had to offer. And the story of his life continued…

The Daily Truth

I thought this article on Russell Crowe was quite amusing, it's titled -

I WAS RUSSELL CROWE'S STOOGE.

@

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/when-i-was-russell-crowes-stooge/2006/06/06/1149359738242.html

http://www.pen.org.au/

On the subject of writing and publishing subject matter, please check this out....

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OR


Click http://www.pen.org.au/docs/join2006.pdf to join.


I'm a member. So could you be.


I love these guys and galls.

Histrionic Personality Disorder.

The Life Story Perspective of Histrionic Behaviour
Childhood

Inconsistent parenting style: alternation between insensitive non-involvement and rewards for exhibitionist behavior.

The HISTRIONIC PERSONALITY DISORDER is identified by the following morphological and constitutional features in the hand. The manifestations of this disorder with regard to patterns of behavior and patterns of attitude would be as outlined in the DSM lll and DSM lV.

Please note: a diagnosis of Histrionic Personality Diagnosis of an individual whose hands are not one with the above photographs, or with the features as detailed below, will, in all instances, be an erroneous diagnosis.

1. The texture of the skin at the back of the hand is particularly coarse and unrefined. This feature is always very pronounced.
2. The dermal texture of the palm itself is very fine. The ridges and furrows that make up the surface of the palmar skin would be relatively difficult to distinguish. The smoothness of the palmar skin would be in inverse proportion to the coarseness of the skin at the back of the hand. This feature is always very pronounced.
3. The knuckles are always pronounced.
4. A certain rigidity describes the constitution of the fingers.
5. The hands are of a generally hard and muscular constitution.
6. The tip phalanges of the fingers would tend to be rounded and mildly tapering. (This feature may be considered a variable).
All authentic instances of Histrionic Personality Disorder will display these features. A diagnosis of this disorder in a male subject would invariably include an additional diagnosis relating to gender uncertainty.

Erroneous Value-judgments

Histrionic personality disorder is a typological representation of bad character, of a vicious disposition formed by habitual passion. Passions are, or are the results of, erroneous value-judgments. The objects of passion listed below (derived mostly from Beck, Freeman, and associates, 1990, pp. 50-51) are external, indifferent things that the Histrionic personality incorrectly judges to be good or bad .. (Evolutionary Psychology and Behavio r Genetics provide adequate scientific explanations of the origins of these impulses.) The cure of Histrionic personality disorder will require correcting these habitual, erroneous value-judgments by making proper use of impressions.

Feelings. Dramatic men and women live in an emotional world. They are sensation oriented, emotionally demonstrative, and physically affectionate, They react emotionally to events and can shift quickly from mood to mood.

Color. They experience life vividly and expansively. They have rich imaginations, they tell entertaining stories, and they are drawn to romance and melodrama.

Attention. Dramatic people like to be seen and noticed. They are often the center of attention, and they rise to the occasion when all eyes are on them.

Appearance. They pay a lot of attention to grooming, and they enjoy clothes, style, and fashion.

Sexual attraction. In appearance and behavior, Dramatic individuals enjoy their sexuality. They are seductive, engaging, charming tempters and temptresses.

Engagement. Easily putting their trust in others, they are able to become quickly involved in relationships.

The spirit is willing. People with Dramatic personality style eagerly respond to new ideas and suggestions from others.

Madame Bovary

In an essay about the novel, Madame Bovary, Erica Jong says that the heroine "dies because she has attempted to make her life into a novel":
Emma Bovary is deluded by literature. Because she is in search of ecstasy and transcendence, she falls madly in love with a cad, then with a coward, ignoring the plodding husband and child who both adore her. She is looking for a higher, more spiritual life than the one available to her as the wife of a bourgeois country doctor, and in this quest she finds only self-destruction. We identify with her because we too look to fantasy for salvation. If Emma Bovary, with all her self-delusion, still stirs our hearts, it is because she wants something authentic and important: for her life to have meaning, for her life to bring transcendence.
A lengthy excerpt, compiled by Mark S. Micale in Approaching Hysteria (pg. 226) from a number of passages in the first half of Madame Bovary, supports this idea:
Emma was becoming capricious, hard to please. She would order special dishes for herself and then not touch them; one day she would drink nothing but fresh milk; the next, cups of tea by the dozen. Often she refused absolutely to go out; then she would feel stifled, open the windows, change to a light dress....She no longer hid her scorn for anything or anyone; and she was beginning now and then to express peculiar opinions, condemning what everyone else approved and approving things that were perverse and immoral--a way of talking that made her husband stare at her wide-eyed....She grew pale and developed palpitations....Some days she chattered endlessly, almost feverishly; and such a period of overexcitement would suddenly be followed by a torpor in which she neither spoke nor moved....Her carnal desires, her cravings for money, and the fits of depression engendered by her love gradually merged into a single torment....She reacted to the drabness of her home by indulging in daydreams of luxury and to matrimonial caresses by adulterous desires....Such a crisis always left her shattered, gasping, prostrate, sobbing to herself, tears streaming down her face....A woman who had assumed such a burden of sacrifice was certainly entitled to indulge herself a little. She bought herself a Gothic prie-dieu and in a month spent fourteen francs on lemons to blanch her fingernails; she wrote to Rouen for a blue cashmere dress; and at Lheureux's she chose the finest of his scarves....She decided to learn Italian; she bought dictionaries, a grammar, a supply of paper. She went in for serious reading--history and philosophy....But her books were like her many pieces of needlepoint: barely begun, they were tossed into the cupboard; she started them, abandoned them, discarded them in favor of new ones...."I have a lover! I have a lover!" she kept repeating to herself, reveling in the thought as though she were beginning a second puberty. At la st she was going to know the joys of love, the fever of the happiness she had despaired of. She was entering a marvelous realm where all would be passion, ectasy [sic], rapture....She remembered the heroines of novels she had read, and the lyrical legion of those adulterous women began to sing in her memory with sisterly voices that enchanted her .. Now she saw herself as one of those amoureuses whom she had so envied: she was becoming, in reality, one of that gallery of fictional figures; the long dream of her youth was coming true.
This need to have another life, an ideal life--the need to be other than what one is--is a manifestation of Histrionic perfectionism.


This list represents careers and jobs people of the Histrionic type tend to enjoy doing -

information-graphics...
designer/ college professor /researcher /legal mediator /social worker /holistic health practitioner /occupational therapist /diversity manager /human resource development specialist/ employment development specialist /minister/priest/rabbi/missionary/ psychologist /writer / poet/novelist /journalist/ editor/art director/ oganizational development specialist


Interesting.... xx

My bit: Often, these are the galls you hook up with, when you hook up with galls who stand from the crowd and come up to you easily, in Sydney bars late at night and eventually it all goes pair shaped, because there so darn agressive and easily impressed at the same time...

Emotional Rescue is in the mail...

Met this guy, had a few ambers, a coupla giggies. He had a maniacal laugh when chats got good and had recently been badly bashed by threes dickheads, wearing Aussie rugby league blazers. Has a steal plate in his face now. Beautiful stuff. He seemed to think that people create a load a drama that they just don’t need.

Whatzz-that?

That we spend all our time on, “emotional blackmail. I just haven’t got the time for it!” he says and that’s the bulldust we give to each other to cause each other grief. It’s an attempt to force each other into positions we wouldn’t perhaps already occupy.

But the problem is nobody, NOBODY, likes to be forced to do things, nobody…

“That’s not how you make porridge!”

When it’s all broken down, the bulldust and troubles with others and the there abouts, we just got the bullshite that is emotional blackmail and that creates the drama. And it’s as simple as that. We love the drama, ‘cos what else is there to tell our friends? What else is there to talk about? What else breaks the monotony of a regular work life? So we make the drama? We hunt for the drama, we cry and fight and scheme and push on with the drama. The stories of ups and downs of our own life, desperately avoiding the stability, the endless capacity for love and getting stuff done, clouding the unique simplicity of the truth with a million and one grabs at something else we don’t have, forgetting to enjoy what we do have and learning to trust we can make more of the good. There is more to it, but… I’m thinking there’s something in it.

I met this guy, my friends, had a few ambers, a coupla giggies, and this one goes out to the one I love, if only she knew and knew how…

Woollahra

On the edge of this big old park, there's a great little place called Woollahra. In the middle of this great little place there's this local called, The Woollahra. Out back of The Woollahra, there's an even smaller place simply called, the Back Bar. It's a real treat. It's the smokers bar, the pool table bar, the people's of Woollahra, bar. It's got a cigga machine and a room off the side where the pokies hardly ever get played. Scores of interesting folk frequent.

Have gotten familiar with a certain Executive Producer of news and current affair on a certain TV network. A very intense man, driven wholly by a ragin' ego. Take the piss of him, as some of the drinkers have and you get a quick and intense threatening stare, forcing the culprit to back down. A mwith ourour a sense of humor perhaps? He can be a very moody fellow, but I like his work, has greater depth than his rivals. A certain new CEO of an old network plus board members frequent. Am making vague acquaintance, it's all "mate" and stuff. I'm not sure I really like him and I'm not actually sure if anyone else does either. But an old ruthlessly ambitious friend or mine did say how much she would love to "blow him." There is also a smattering of old Aussie actors and the sorts. You'ld know 'em.

There's an old journo who has been writing a weekly business column, in some mag, for 40 years now, just tonight he let slip that Jewish people can be otherwise named a 5 by 2 or a Jew. It's kinda naughty funny but some people choose not to have senses of humour bout some stuff. Gotta love a rhyme. He also let out bout, "When the fan hits the shit!! WHEN-THE-FAN-HITS-THE-SHIT!!" I like that line. There's a gall who runs round with a big bag a coke, who never has no money but surprisingly always gets loans for the pokie machines. She's been a load a fun on several occasions, but wouldn't pick her cherry if it was the last one on earth. Not even if shed dished up that whole bag in one sittin', but a lovely lass nevertheless. She reckons the Back bar is the loneliest place on Earth, but I'm thinking it's that little bag a white talking, it's white magic talkin'. They got each other in the back bar. They got each other, any night of the week to share a coupla drinks with and that's just the way they likes it.

Further down the street, at an earlier hour, everybody without money in Woollahra seems to deal in second hand furniture that they pick up from the council throw outs, it seems. They have a lot of time on their hands, Council throw out only comes every couple a months. There is a load of flash antique shops along Queen Street. But those places make money, apparently.

There's this fab coffee shop, that must make a million coffees a day, so is it so regularly visited. People lining up all down the road. And darn, they's be the best bloody coffee's in the whole town, I must say. A morning giggy (sic) and a soy latte with a whole load of honey and ya start the day with a great BIG SMILE. Everybody's happy in Smurfville, Woollahra. Something bout the air. All that Centennial Park greenery giving off anti-oxidising negative ions or somethink. Perhaps they get out jogging more round here or do the gym more. I know it's not that, but I think they feel like the chosen few. The special souls. The lucky ones. There's just something bout the place, that's hard to put a finger on. Perhaps it could be all that stuff that grows on trees bobbing round, soothin' their peaceful souls...

On Dreaming and Delusion...

Ok. So ones attitude to things has a lot to do with a lot of things… Anything you want really. Our attitudes to things completely create how we live in the world and how we receive what we do and what happens to us. But it’s got to be real. There in lays an interesting conundrum.

Understanding who we are is largely dependent on finding what makes us special. What are we best at and what are we missing. Our attitudes to what befalls us in our lives can be utterly controlled by us for our own benefit, allowing us to grow forward into who we want to be. When we understand where our particular talents lie, then examine our attitudes towards all the beautiful and wonderful shite around us, in regards to these things, we can do as we want without too much grief or time management problems…

I’m sure many of you have understood that for years now…

Mr Shindler’s List, Thomas Keneally said on some TV program recently something like, “That writing is very much a delusional state of mind. That writer’s can get carried away in all sorts of zany, hallucinogenic places.” I think it’s definitely the same for actors. Actors can get carried away in all sorts of weird shite. Least of all work shortage and a roller coaster type of life. The bigger they are the harder they fall, someone said. After all, if your prime occupation is to fantasise states of being, dreaming up or embodying someone else, then where have you got to go but out and away in beautiful La La land…. And I don’t mean Los Angeles, unless of course your lucky and take your bets that way.

So when we eventually work out our own shite, we work out how to stay in the land of the real for longer periods of time and can make appropriate decisions from there… We’re much more effective that way…

I love dreamers. They way they float away someplace else and become hard to contact. We’re their own beliefs come to out weigh everyone else’s’, at least in their own mind. It’s scary stuff for most people.

Going out with dreamers can be hard. Depending on how dreamy they are and how often and where they are at in their current dream cycle. Trust is important in personal relationships. Trusting some dreamers can be very difficult.

My last long term, with a beautiful dreamer left me seeing her walking drunkin across Oxford Street, a couple of days before her birthday, staring at the sky, stars in her eyes, oblivious to my needs, yet direly keen to see me… I knew shed been off playing and partying with someone else. It was so obvious. She had flowers, but wouldn’t tell me where she’d got them from. She really was never the sort to settle for long, preferring to flitter around, spreading herself thinly to those who grabbed her fancy this evening or that….

Ow.

A friend had just told me about an increasingly more prevalent kind of women in Australian urban society, the Okkaette. Women who’s prime fun in life is to drink till blind drunk then screw whoever grabs their fancy when pissed. They are really common these days in inner city Sydney. Sounds like a treat until you decide to settle down with one.

Oppps… Mate, I tell ya don’t even bother. Don’t worry ‘bout what ever you think her particular charms may be. The Okkaette and her mates are a no win situation. They are far too drunk and keen not to give a darn bout what ever plans you might harbour for a decent working relationship. They claim it’s a reaction to feminism.

It's never been that hard for most women to get lucky, if you know what I mean? So a women is pretty lame if they want to get lucky all over town, I figure. I mean there is little challenge in it, so why bother? In our culture women get to dress up all pretty like and act attractive to the opposite sex. Flirting is fairly acceptable in most places. It makes fidelity difficult, attracting all that attention. But how admirable, women who can negotiate this stuff. Or at least talk about what's going on for them. If they can't, you know their hiding something.

If they ask you questions like, “But why do you think I sleep around?” Or “Why do you think I lie?” They are simply trying to correct their behaviour so as to con their numerous men more! Their really not that bright.

I know I can here it now calls of "misogynist!!" going out from all the women reading this... Hey, read it again and think about some of the girls you know. I only write this in the belief that people, underneath it all, want long term and substantial lovers anyway. We all want to be loved and just trying to clear some of the crap stopping this…

If women believe they can duplicate some Aussie male stereotype that has hardly existed for decades, was perpetuated by women’s fear in the first place and concerns some of the less desirable male members and human traits in our culture anyway. From my experience, their numbers are very small and they are usually unrefined and uneducated in countenance, being fairly closed minded and judgemental, which is great if that’s your cuppa tea. But it gets scary when the number of professional, so called socially aware, women behaving this way today begin to far out weigh the men doing it…

Just add booze, or e or ice or coke... You get, instant easy slut factor!!

…And all while they have lovers, they propose to care about, on the side.

Nothing good can come of this.

Let me know if you think I'm wrong!!

Admittedly, it is a difficult thing to gauge.

But you can see it when you come across it, the Okkaette.

The woman, Aussie Jobbo easy to pick up and at a bar near you!!

... Probably, some other blokes lover, who he put in a whole lot of time for, would of ran around the world for and was trying to build a future outta love and some good old fashion hard learnt sense...

If ya can't beat em, perhaps we should join em?!!

I'm off to buy a bag, to land me a bag!!?

Coming?

Just rantin'

And the writer sits alone in his room, writing.

Writing after a week that started with pictures of pre-pubescent Israeli girls writing surely poetic messages of hate in thick texta to their Lebanese sisters on missiles, which will soon be launched upon the neighbouring country.

Just like putting a message in a bottle and little personally meaningful trinket, then throwing to out to sea, in the hope that one day somebody will find it and give you a ring, to let you know!!

Surely a beautiful and regrettable, unforgettable image.

Ohhhh, to those ever growing bags of regrettable unforgettable things…

Writing at the end of the week,
after a succession of job interviews in the financial sector.

Well why the hell not?

One of which required a creative copywriter, who in reality, didn’t need to be all that creative, but more so then their current one, who really couldn’t really write.

I had arced up the big creativity sell of my skills, because the headhunting recruitment agent seemed so adamant that this is what they needed. By his experience in trying to fill the role he seemed to think that most writers are not that creative, so he felt he had to empathise the creative side of the job requirement to me, much to my dismay upon the final interview.

Mmmmm… definitions of creative…

My private thoughts… Those who interviewed me, weren’t very exciting people. Yet, at least they were interesting and seemed to know some clever things about marketing. I do though like open minded, fearless, passionate and self contained, thoughtful people. The current copywriter in the job in question, definitely wasn’t that…. Oh the North Shore…

I summon the gods…. Bring on a full time big agency position.

The more business we do the better we get at it. Our instincts grow acute. We learn who we are dealing with quicker and tailor ourselves accordingly. Our beautiful society is quickly becoming more conservative on the work front and more amoral on the social front. Perhaps it’s just me joining them all…

Oh yes, that’s it.

Writing at the end of a week where mid-week, I became more closely acquainted, but not like that, with a coke addict who tried very hard to bed me on Monday night. It’s so easy to see how people get a taste for that stuff. Talk ‘bout yummy! Just, where for art thou, realism? But for all the up sides, it does seem to help ruin peoples lives and the stuff ain’t cheep…

Oh drugs…

The stories I am hearing about “ice” are shocking. I got one coming out in “User’s News”. It’s a local drugs magazine. People’s friends are dropping off like flies, well off the social psychological radar. They become psychotic to the point of non-communication and we cannot bring them back from here, without having to deal with great amounts of grief. I tried to save one and found it to be a complete waste of time. More Oh's, what do we do.

Writing at the end of a week where I can see why I’m givin’ in to allowing myself not to feel, just like all the others, yet I will keep feeling, but I can choose somehow, how… It seems after a certain number of disappointments and the like it saves a whole lot of time.

So, I join the power hungry chain of socially acceptable human relics.

So we care when we want to, but are free not to, at a whim.

Oh how tough am I.

Pretty tough, I ‘spose.

Oh, for the love of humanity, let them not steal my integrity now!!

I’ve already changed my values and belief system up to a point. All this on the quest to discover what’s out there and how it’s running. So one day I can go back and make some purpose of it all. The class difference, the differing points of view, sub-cultures, personal strengths and weaknesses, special interests and so on…

The funny ways that people be funny, in an ever increasing world of standardised human beings…

Got no time for weirdos now, just got no time….

On feelings...

You know,

I think it's ok to have feelings about things and
it's ok not to have feelings about things...

But, I believe it's better to have feelings about things,
feelings that make us want to do something about whatever
it is were feeling about out of position of strength...

Strong feelings for strong reasons that help us get what ever we
want from life.

I'm sure this might seem obvious to many people,
but I'm not sure I've ever seen it written down before.

Until now.

I've lost something...

I’ve lost something or rather somebody stripped something away from me and in it's place I have gained something else... It is rather harrowing to see the complete decay of ethics and morals in people all around me. It is worse when one falls for someone devoid of such rare virtues, and I mean fall...

Good luck to you.

We've all been there.

Finally, they skilfully slither away, as if they were always poised for the opportunity to do so when a suitable occasion rose. Simply to build on their already too too healthy ego. Nobody likes to get caught out for their dalliances. So telling the perfunctory swag of lies and spin to as many as they can to save whatever face they can muster from a predicament they themselves created becomes the rule of the day.

I'm wondering if it's the back end of the "fabulous darlink" set. Oh, there's nothing like optimism and abundance, to bring about good cheer and high self esteem...

As I sit here wondering “what happened?” and of course luckily, working it out, only to face the daunting prospect of seeing myself once again in all his glorious and not so glorious ways.

When we come to the crunching times of life, however big or small, everything gets thrown up in the air and the pieces plus a few extra, if we’re lucky, come one hopes, gently, to form a new shape and even newer understandings.

There is usually some amount of pain involved, perhaps some regrets, but that’s just the price of one more lesson learnt...

Yes, I am missing someone.

I know, how sensitive of me...

Someone who was probably inappropriate to be involved with in the first place. Someone who I was saddened to find on a pretty good hunch, keeps her personal space her personal space and tells a good tail and weaves a beautiful and admirable accomplished spin.

I let her know this you see, and so she was deeply offended early on in the peace. Of course, all my assumptions were eventually proven to be correct, oh, how fabulous darlink, but still I found her adorable.

I hate that, "I told you so!" stuff…

She was an excitable bubble of almost continual happiness but
also a lousy abusive drunk at least five nights of the week.

What does one do?

They say, you have to take the good with the bad, or do you.

No you don’t, but then one misses out on the good.

There in points to my Danish Prince sized problem.

“To be or not to be, that is the (eternal) question.”

Sometimes there is little to be definately decided amongst the confusion and contradictions of weighing up the virtues and vices of certain options on hand. We sometimes just have to go with the flow...

She loves me, she loves me not. After all these days, for better of for worse, there are many love options in all those bars and parties and this is the game of love how it seems to be most often played in Sydney today. And of course, there are always friends and work to be done etc etc etc…

To care or not to care.

The possibilities are plentiful. Jack Marx, the SMH columnist, who rather brilliantly blew the whistle earlier in the week on his secret dealings with Russell Crowe, has some undeniably interesting things to say on the subject that leave me somewhat squirming and questioning my values.

SEE:

http://blogs.smh.com.au/thedailytruth/archives/2006/06/and_another_thi_1.html

I keep coming up against people who see things as he does and it leaves me wondering if you can’t beat them then why not join them. We still get to have truth and respect amongst our best of friends and all the others can simply negotiate their ways into our hearts or not.

As the late Kurt Cobain wrote in his departure letter, “There is good in everybody,” and that’s just fabulous darlink!!

Sex, drugs & R&R.

Been writing songs lately and jammin'.
Wanna get a punk pop band up and going.

I just love it, can't help it, always have loved it.

Been playin' for years. Haven't had a band in years though.

I've been reading ths book that all about floating yourself
on the market of human competition.

I know, sick hey?

The rules...

Know yourself.
Know ya value.
Make the most of ya best values.
(ie. do what ya best at)
Know ya market.
Go to market and get your valued price.

Yep, what a head trip.

Makes some sense though.

perhaps...

Taking it easy in town...

There's nothing as good as a chuff and a strum of the old guitar late at sunset, on the top end of Centennial Park over looking the suburbs leading up to Botany Bay.

I'll get a photo to show you, now that Google's photo putting function is finally working.

On Relationships...

Hi been a while.

Amongst other things, I have been rewriting the ever elusive novel everyone seems to have locked in the closet or misplaced on c: drive somewhere....

Here a sneek excerpt -

Today, quite unlike any other day the sky was a gigantic TV screen in blue and white. And on the screen the show was the most pleasurable vision I had ever known.

As I walked down these old streets of Fremantle, my body felt more lucid then a well oiled Formula One Racing car. Inside I was revving just as powerfully. I billowed energy, leaving psychedelic streaks like petrol spills all over the pavement, walls and sides of cars. Nothing was excused from my blazing trail. I walked, connected to land and sea and sky above. They all channelled through me, punched through me simultaneously. Suddenly, dropping down to the concrete footpath. I was halted abruptly before a line of all-powerful ants. Carving an ant river far below me. I looked at them way down as if I stood at the top of a water filled canyon. Drawn to the pavement I fell far. Like I leaped off the cliff edge to my hands and knees. Once below my eyes lids closed tight gripping to each other. The side of my face grated against the pavement. My eyes held on even tighter. The feeling was like my eyes imploding. Gripping so tight that the lids started to implode. I was trapped with the need to rub and scratch and gouge my way into the pavement. The deepest irritability imaginable ripping my skin tissue to shreds felt like a very long and well endowed orgasm. On reflection, I had seen the sort in some seventies porno movie. Did they really feel them like that? If they do, I think I'm missing out.

"Lee!" Liz was concerned. She was reminding me that gravel burn hurts.

I opened my eyes and stared up close into the running rapids of ants. To my shock, they all turned around at once, reared on their back legs and saluted me, every single one of them. I had no choice but to salute them back. When in Rome do as the Romans. Then some of them broke line and went on their merry ant like way. While others stood very still giving me a direct eye off. A Mexican stand off. Tense, full eye contact, unbroken concentration, no blinking. I wasn't sure if I'd bitten off more then I could chew. I mean I wasn't sure if ants had eyelids or not and my eyes were throbbing, seething water from the implosion. Today though, lucky I felt very capable. Unless they started throwing granules of sand in my eyes I wasn't giving in. I was getting sucked into the soul of these ants. I could feel my whole being pulling towards them. Or maybe it was my inner being, my golden lifeline, sifting through the eyes of these hard working fellers. My inner being and my outer were indistinguishable. I resisted their pull whole-heartedly. Though, I liked these tiny little plastic black fellers. But I didn't want to give my soul to them. Finally a faint glimmer in their eyes said they seemed to let off. As if we both recognised we were a spiritual match. Their attitudes changed. Less of a confrontation. They seemed to be inquiring about how I was feeling and I was wondering the same thing about them.

Novels need to be written quick or at least all in one go, they get feral pretty quickly if left alone to vegetate unchecked.

Aren't relationships wonderful things!
Especially those of the sexual kind.
Especially.

To make them work, it's not really that hard, assuming you pick a lowish maintenance lover, that is!

High maintenance lovers mean just that, loads of work, ton's of maintaining, heaps of stress and effort.
Some people, most people just can't be bothered.

There is sometimes stuff to gain from that hard work, tryingly difficult and demanding lover.

We can learn loads about ourselves when someone loves us enough to tell us what they think of us.

None of us are perfect.

We're all really quite different, with some similarities between us.

There is an element of having to take the good with the bad or we could decide to shack up with someone conflict and fairly trouble free.

Perhaps this dream person might also be empathetic, considerate, funny, wise, successful, ambitious, have heaps of lovely friends and are also genuine, intelligent, sexy, brave, confident, independent and god forbid full of loyalty and integrity!

Wow how's that for a mix? As if...

Yet perhaps possible...

At least in writing.

But if their not all that, (and if they are then we better hope that we are too or heart break will surely follow), there are insights to gain from the intimacies of romance.

The pendulum of acquiring real trust in a Sydney where there is so many options and partners’ are drunk and socializing oh so very often and therefore of course, being hit on by members of the opposite sex is difficult for so many…

I'm thinking there is even more to the mix then simply knowing oneself impeccably, and as if that isn't a difficult enough task at the best of times. But after these things we do with different kinds of people on their different journeys are over, if we've lucky, we can always look back and smile a gentle smile about what went wrong and why and how and with who etc and quietly remark to ourselves about the new mix of human characteristics we have just discovered in our newly made ex or perhaps we can simply choke bitter angry tears for evermore hoping that they soon drop off the face of the planet and put it all to the back of our mind stored under, "I simply haven't got the time to give a toss!" As we walk over to the bar and offer the spunk in reading glasses a drink. And lets see if we can do it better this time...

I say goodbye, you say hello!

The Cross as we know it may now be gone forever.

The Sydney City Council has placed lovely looking flower
boxes reminisent of Double Bay halfway up the smart polls,
down the entire street.

Surely beautiful limping old people and those with a taste for peaceful, joyous
floral arrangements will love the new changes!

At least they could of made them lower so as to be used for bins.

Me thinks, surprisingly, there isn't enough bins on the strip.
One has to walk half the way down the road to get to one.

Perhaps it's a good thing, at least we get a chance to check out councils
new flowers.

Oh, flowers are so beautiful and now soooo Kings Cross!!

Wanna die, be a Marlboro man!!

Sometimes I think, I smoke too much. I smoke way too much. Except for the days I’ve given up, probably about 10 times since I started, once for almost two weeks, I’ve been smoking at least a packet of Peter Stuyvesant cigarettes a day now for about 6 years.

Some days I’ve smoked two. That’s 40 cancer causing, baby killing, brain polluting, oxygen robbing, skin drying, pore cracking, little buggers full of floor cleaning products and rat poisons and car exhaust fumes and 106 other toxic substances that my body really just doesn’t need.

Smoking kills people right. Smoking kills. Repeat after me. Smoking kills and that means dead,
kaput, finished, over, not another breath, astalavista baby, nil, null, void or perhaps heaven or hell, and you know the like...

Smokers are killing themselves very slowly but surely.

It makes sense...

At $9 a packet x 365 days x 6 years, I have paid $19710 to slowly kill myself.

Now isn’t that wonderful.

You can’t smoke in half the bars around here legally anymore, but I still manage to find the ones with a big enough space where you can…

I don’t even think about smoking, when I’m doing it, I just do it???

I could have been dining with some beautiful gall all that time every Saturday night at some very yummy joint round town and picked up the whole bill.

But alas, instead I’ve been making myself feel less good. I’ve slowly been making myself sick, and it’s making myself feel sick just thinking about it…

Tomorrow, I quit!

I WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER SMOKE AGAIN AFTER TOMORROW!!

Have a cranky day…



A few months later.... I still haven't quit. But I have cut down! And now I go jogging everyday!!
And I'm no longer coughing!

I'll keep you posted on my giving up... Still trying.

Some women are just biatches, sorry, I mean cows!!

This would have to be one of the saddest admissions I will l probably have to make.

(And I do mean cows after the flack I have copped for using the latter word!)
Then again, I’m sure there will be many others. Sometimes, depending on how you look at things, things can make you sad. Or alternatively, you don’t have to look at things or again I believe, the worst alternative you don’t have to feel about them…

I read recently that most people no longer feel about things, or are living in the past, where the things they feel don’t have anything to do with what is happening now, with the person something is inevitably happening with.

People believe that it is tough not to feel, deciding a long time ago that whatever pain they felt way back then, was a weakness. But now that they don’t feel they are stronger. They are an adult and all grown up and stuff. Acting like they believe adults do. I’m not so sure. I have a hunch though that not feeling, stifles creativity, intuition, corrupts integrity and possibly does a whole lot of other adult like atrophies to the human spirit. As people become older they atrophy. This I can see.

I have been dating a string of angry women. It’s right about now that I may ask, is it me. But to be brutally honest with myself, other then the quick occasional glance at other sassy striding women, I can’t see what I do wrong. Oh yeah, heard it all before I hear you say! But just on this occasion, it might just be true.

When you meet someone you like you hook up, so to speak. There is a secret to relationships that I have gained from numerous reliable clinical sources, expert opinion and even pop psychology and human relations books that says something to the effect of,

”Keep it happy and peaceful, and empathetic and loving for as long as humanly possible.”

Or else what you will get is their resentment, crashing against your resentment about something you said that you shouldn’t have early on in the peace and the games, (oh that’s another thing, for a prolonged and happy sexual relationship, play no games, say no names) arise.

The games that corrode the trust that needs to develop. The games that force each other into not feeling because you know they are only trying to get a stick up ya bum and you don’t want to give them the pleasure of that and on and on it goes….

Arrrghh… that’s what it is I hear you say. That’s what I’ve always been doing.

And yes it probably was.

I am struggling to see the light at the end of the relationship tunnel for me. “You can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes”…..etc. Ta Mick.

It’s easy to pick up, don’t worry ‘bout that, it’s not me wizzer that’s suffering here. It’s me desire to have something more substantial. To have some real communion, a real satisfying, honest accepting, driven, mutually satisfying, happy relationship where both of us are self realised and know how to communicate what they want from the relationship.

That brings me to the admission that almost all the women I’ve been out with for many years now couldn’t even remotely stack up to any of this.

Instead of voicing how they feel they choose to get mobile, to get angry, to push around whatever might they can muster…. Woops here it goes… I’m saying no names, playin’ now games and walking right on out the door…. See ya later lady, catch ya on the flip side!!

Hope not.

There a great book called, “Angry Women.” Has that fab porno performance artist in it, Annie Sprinkle. She’s a gall with some chomp. She simulates fellatio simultaneously to 35 different dildos… That’s admirable, I think, perhaps, maybe, actually, I’m not so sure. But hey, she does it! Mmm…

I don’t really want to go on about all those angry women out there, you know who you are, just not what you do.

My advice to you is, keep the peace next time, you might just have a chance at something happy. People like love. We, I believe, we’re made for love.

Being angry doesn’t mean you are powerful, it means you’re neurotic. I mean just think about it. How is anyone gonna want to stay by you with all that unbalanced power tripping ego shite going on? It’s really not that hard, you can do it, I know they yell at you at work, but the home front isn’t work is it, or if it is, it’s not supposed to be, believe me.

“Alls fair in love and war,” well that’s why the words love and war are in the same sentence. With that attitude all ya gonna get is war, ‘cos anything goes but nothing works, it’s all destroying no creating…

Keep it real!

Keep the peace in love!!

A few months later....

After my recent dumping, feeling the pain and confusion of it all, I am now thinking of all the thing about me that would make me angry if I went out with me. Oh yes I am nice, for what it's worth and yes I can be a hurt little bastard, allowing myself the moral high ground of not making the first attack. But how weak really? I mean there is something better then simply being nice and romantic all the time... That would be being tactful, respectable, clever, charming and with substance, admirable and a few other things thrown in...

Da know what I mean?